Beautiful Life

He stood behind her in the mirror and whispered, “You are beautiful.” She smiled and closed her eyes, remembering all the times he had said this to her before.

On their first date, forty years ago, when he arrived at her door holding a dazzling bouquet of spring flowers.

Before he slid the simple gold band on her finger and said, “I do.”

When they welcomed their son into the world, even though she was tear-stained, exhausted and flecked with remnants of her own vomit.

As they began the long drive home after delivering their only child to his new, adult life halfway across the country.

Before they went to sleep each night and first thing each morning, his words, steady presence and love were with her, always.

He had said he loved her, that he would always love her, as he lay in the hospital bed, morphine drip and cancer dulling the usual sparkle in his eyes and slurring his words, but he didn’t really need to say them anymore. She knew.

She opened her eyes, and he was gone, a hint of his cologne and memories all that remained.

Clarity

In an atmosphere continually fraught

I seek clarity.

Who am I and what am I here for?

Why must we endure seemingly endless days

under clouds and rain, deprived of

the nurturing sun?

What is the purpose of ongoing wars

and other violence throughout the world?

Some days, it seems more than I can bear.

Then, a cardinal alights to feed outside my window.

A stranger on the street smiles my way

and the laughter of a child arrives

on a passing breeze.

I remember to seek balance

and begin again.

Transformed

Carol watched the glass fall. It slid from her fingers and descended past the counter’s edge, past her swelling belly and swollen ankles to crash on the kitchen’s tile floor. The hand that had recently held the glass fluttered up to touch her face, as though affirming that it was still there. It hadn’t suddenly changed like everything else that she thought she knew.

She eased herself down to a crouch and began collecting the chunks and shards resting in puddles of once sparkling water. She carefully laid them in her hand, one by one, until she’d gathered them all. There was no way to restore the glass to its original condition, much like her life.

Stepping over the water she walked to the trash bin and dumped the glass inside. The last piece to slide from her hand left a thin scratch, quickly rimmed with red. She might not escape this situation unchanged, but perhaps she would become more distinct, sharper in some way. Only time would tell.

October

 Maple

draped in her finest

 

Undressed slowly by

the northern wind

slender branches reaching up

 

Costumed children with

blooming cheeks

shriek round and round

seeing candy and treats

knowing they’ll return to warmth

For the Birds

I have several bird feeders situated outside my office window. During the spring and summer, there are hummingbird feeders, oriole feeders, and a seed feeder. During the fall, we switch out the hummingbird and oriole feeders for suet.

The bluejays stage in the trees surrounding our yard, waiting for my  husband to toss a handful of peanuts onto our deck. Not technically a feeder, but part of the avian feeding system he has devised. They fly in one at a time to snatch the nuts with nimble efficiency from the deck floor and flit away as the next dives in. I wonder who choreographs this feeding ballet.

The red-bellied woodpecker comes to feed alone. Occasionally I will see him perched on the weathered wooden seed feeder, but most of the time, he favors the suet. His balance seems precarious as he grabs the wire surrounding the suet with his feet and bends his body to peck at the suet, but he is well practiced and has a firm grip.

During the winter we sometimes get other woodpeckers, chickadees, juncos, mourning doves, finches, sparrows, and more. It always brightens my day to watch their entertaining behavior at and around the feeders.

Traveling

 

On my drive this morning, 

I passed a family of sandhills cranes 

congregating at the side of the road. 

 

A bald eagle soared high above

and a hawk flew straight and low. 

 

A group of turkey vultures spiraled 

above a stand of trees.

 

Alone in my car rushing down

asphalt highways, I marveled

at nature in action.

 

 

 

 

mist

 She sashays to

a waltz wafting on

the western wind

       

     Across moonlit marsh

above placid pond

over roiling river

 

She dances past dawn

softening the sunrise and

hushing the waking world